Annie

So, I was thinking about a friend from my past recently -- Annie Humphrey.

I guess she was on my mind because of my recent trip to New York and being that she is now a bit of an semi-famous actress/comedian, I thought I would look her up online to see if she was in any current performances that I might be able to catch while I was in town. Unfortunately all I was able to find via Google was some references to her being on a somewhat recent sketch-comedy show called the Larry Krall Show (you can see her in the Cast area of the website) which I sadly never got the chance to see before it went off the air. Oh well.

Anyway, I met her back around 1995 when I used to frequent to the Atlanta Gay Center's youth group with my best friend toxigenic74. She was a somewhat quiet girl back then who always had on a hoodie and had the most gorgeous eyes. It took me weeks to convince toxigenic74 that she was British as well, since she rarely spoke. As time passed though, the three of us (myself, her, and toxigenic74) began to hang out. toxigenic74 and Annie sparked an immediate kinship and I admit that I was a bit envious at the time because I would sometimes feel like a third wheel around them -- mostly because I had such a mad crush on Annie that I could barely speak with any degree of intellect around her. I distanced myself a bit from the two of them back then, too embarassed of my self-perceived social gaffes around her and worried I was getting in the way of the friendship between her and toxigenic74. I deeply regret that now. Oh, the folly of youth!

So, through the years her and I still kept in touch -- mostly seeing one another at random parties, social events, and the like. I worked with a long-time girlfriend of her's for sometime, so I would often go clubbing or to concerts with the two of them. Plus, I suppose it was easy as for a long time, on and off, toxigenic74 was one of her roommates. In fact, just before moving into my apartment about 2 years ago when I was living in Midtown, I was living with toxigenic74 in a house that she owns. I saw her once in my stint living there when she made a brief visit to the house. I think we exchanged some awkward words and that was about it. At least that was all I can remember except for the sweaty palms I had around her during her visit. She still affected me.

I don't know why I am writing this about her. Perhaps I am just feeling confessional or just cathartic. I think part of me hoped I would run into her in New York somewhere, but that was silly. I just wish that sometimes I could go back and develop a deeper friendship with her. She just seemed to be such a great person. I guess that the timing was all wrong and I certainly had some personal issues at the time (read: scary boyfriend). I think now our paths have diverged too much to even meet again.

Oh well.