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yet another rambling update
Aug. 14th, 2003 04:13 pmi don't know what is wrong with me, but the last few days my brain has felt like absolute mush. i can only theorize it is because i have a week and a half before beginning my new position at work and i have spent all of my hours at work (and some overtime) writing multitudes of procedural documentation for the person taking my place -- as well as training her, of course. part of me is annoyed as when i transitioned to that particular team in the beginning of june, the previous representative had been fired so there was no documentation for me and i had to teach myself everything. now i am just trying to piece together all of my notes for her and it is completely draining me. still, i would not wish my situation to befall on anyone else where they have to try and figure out how to do everything on their own, so i am trying to give her as many tools as i can before i leave, but, as i said, i am so worn out from it.
i've also not been able to write hardly any fiction this past week or so, at least anything of merit. i just feel like my brain is clouded, which sucks because writing is my meditation and generally a device to keep me sane. i just get home and i feel like i can barely even function, yet alone do anything productive. hell, i even went to sleep around 9:00 last night and probably would have even went to bed earlier, but i forced myself to stay up as late as i possibly could.
then a friend of mine called me like 50 times this past weekend and i told my roommate to tell her i would call her back, but i just haven't the energy to do so. plus, to be quite honest, a part of me is a bit annoyed that she called so many times (okay, maybe not 50 times, but at least 10). please no one else do that -- leave a message and i will get back to you when i can. there is no need to call and call and call and call and call. here it is wednesday and i still have not returned her call, but i just don't feel like it now - especially when she was only calling to see if i was going to a concert last saturday night (which i wasn't going to). i mean, i don't want to necessarily speak ill of her, but at this moment in my life, with my head swimming as it is, that is the last thing i need.
i have to house-sit for my parents starting this friday as well, which means 1+ hour commute time to work. they need someone to take care of the dog and my roommate won't let the dog in our home, so its off across town to stay at their place. yuck. at least they are most likely paying me -- or at least they better be! maybe that will be good for me to go out there and get away from everything for a bit. i will have net access, so hopefully i will be able to write and post more.
that's another thing, until my roommate starts back to school at the end of this month, my computer access is limited. because we share the same computer and he is still downloading everything to repair the crash we had a week or so ago, it seems like he is always on it lately. he used to work until 8:00 or 9:00 at night and that gave me a little window to surf and write and whatever before he got home, but now he gets off before me and is usually on the computer from the time i get home until late (i usually get a brief window -- if i am lucky -- right after he goes to bed and before i do).
well, there's an update for you all -- apologies for the rambling. hopefully i will soon be back online more. sorry for the lack of updates, especially on the fiction end of things. i hope this brain-mush thing is a temporary ailment. perhaps i need that free bottle of "focus factor"...
i've also not been able to write hardly any fiction this past week or so, at least anything of merit. i just feel like my brain is clouded, which sucks because writing is my meditation and generally a device to keep me sane. i just get home and i feel like i can barely even function, yet alone do anything productive. hell, i even went to sleep around 9:00 last night and probably would have even went to bed earlier, but i forced myself to stay up as late as i possibly could.
then a friend of mine called me like 50 times this past weekend and i told my roommate to tell her i would call her back, but i just haven't the energy to do so. plus, to be quite honest, a part of me is a bit annoyed that she called so many times (okay, maybe not 50 times, but at least 10). please no one else do that -- leave a message and i will get back to you when i can. there is no need to call and call and call and call and call. here it is wednesday and i still have not returned her call, but i just don't feel like it now - especially when she was only calling to see if i was going to a concert last saturday night (which i wasn't going to). i mean, i don't want to necessarily speak ill of her, but at this moment in my life, with my head swimming as it is, that is the last thing i need.
i have to house-sit for my parents starting this friday as well, which means 1+ hour commute time to work. they need someone to take care of the dog and my roommate won't let the dog in our home, so its off across town to stay at their place. yuck. at least they are most likely paying me -- or at least they better be! maybe that will be good for me to go out there and get away from everything for a bit. i will have net access, so hopefully i will be able to write and post more.
that's another thing, until my roommate starts back to school at the end of this month, my computer access is limited. because we share the same computer and he is still downloading everything to repair the crash we had a week or so ago, it seems like he is always on it lately. he used to work until 8:00 or 9:00 at night and that gave me a little window to surf and write and whatever before he got home, but now he gets off before me and is usually on the computer from the time i get home until late (i usually get a brief window -- if i am lucky -- right after he goes to bed and before i do).
well, there's an update for you all -- apologies for the rambling. hopefully i will soon be back online more. sorry for the lack of updates, especially on the fiction end of things. i hope this brain-mush thing is a temporary ailment. perhaps i need that free bottle of "focus factor"...
